IMMA GROWN WOMAN!!

Ya, girl turned 18 on September 13th. I really wish I would have blogged it but I wanted to enjoy my birthday weekend...which was the same as any other day...except you know...it was my birthday.
I turned 18, isn't that crazy? I'm legally able to do whatever the hell I want. I'm legally considered a grown woman. It is terrifying to me, to be considered an adult when I still have a mind of teenager..well no, I wouldn't say that...what I mean is that I still rely on my parents for pretty much everything. To take me places, food, money, yada yada. I don't know if I'm ready, I don't have a choice really.
I've enjoyed 17, it was a really great age. My favorite age. I loved shocking people. I loved that I was still legally a child. I loved how much fun I had with this age.
You've been good to me 17 but it is time to take 18 full force. This should be fun.

 

 I wore this outfit on my actual birthday. I went to Red Robins with the fam then we went home and  ate loads of cake and ice cream. It was fun, I really enjoyed myself. Oh, and the next day we went to see Insidious chapter 2, it was good. I wish it was more scary though.
Anyway, I love this outfit, all black is my thing. Black is such a good color for me, it just makes me feel bad-ass, but I still love to wear color...just not as much as I like to wear black..
This shirt gave me life when I first saw it but I was afriad to wear it because I'm fat but I got over it and stayed confident, and now I could wear this shirt everyday. I won't though because I don't want it to get dirty. ( IT DOESN'T SAY HOW TO CLEAN IT..LIKE..WHAT? :/ )
AND, I am in desperate need for so new black, LEATHER boots. I love the ones above but they are from payless and getting a little old. I'm not bashing Payless, these boots have been good to me. I would just like to get some that will last me for a very long time, you know? Like some Docs ( I have green ones) or motorcycle boots. I don't know.
Okay, I'm done rambling. 
Actually, I want to make a post on here tomorrow. I want to talk about my fears growing up and touch some more on change. I hope I remember, if not then the next day.

Night,
Whitney xx
 

Batman

I'm doing my best to keep up with this blog, I'm just lazy but I have an idea. Since I won't be going to school until the winter, I want to make scheduled days to which I have to make a post. Like homework. It will keep me busy and I won't feel completely useless or bored while I am at home. I don't know what days but maybe like three days out of the week? Four? Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday? Is that too much? Whateves, I will figure it out.
ANYWAY, I am so excited for fall. This outfits was taken like two days ago and it makes me excited for fall/winter, you know where I can actually wear a faux leather jacket without feeling like I'm about to die from heat. Yeah. that would be nice. I didn't wear this outfit "out", I just decided to get dressed because I was sick of being in my PJs or lazy wear. It was nice to let my hair loose. I will be wearing this everyday of the fall haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, yeah.

 

Oh, and these boots are MY LIFE. I love them so much, even if they do make my feet hurt, not too much tho.

 

RINGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, my spider is missing a leg.
Okay, bah.

Change & Strips

I don't really know what to write about but I guess I could talk about change. I don't know about anyone else but sometimes taking a chance or making a change paralyzes me, my life. I think it has held me back in high school and is holding me back in recent decisions in my life. I don't know why. Every time I want to do something bold, I'm just like nah, I can't, and not with clothing but with other things such as hairstyles or just life style things, such as college or jobs, something more like that. I'm even afraid to lose weight, I don't want to lose weight, I need to for health reasons, but that is for another time, another post. 
I'm afraid to finish things or pull through, with my writings or stories. WHY? I've been wondering why for the past three years. I just want to understand myself. Is it because I'm afraid to lose my family or my sisters? Am I afraid of losing memories or missing out on something? Am I sacrificing my dreams and life because of this fear? 
I don't know. I'm just annoyed with myself. I want to break this fear, so for my birthday I'm going to get a tattoo and dye my hair (black or add some dark auburn). Just small things that can ease my fear, you know. To teach myself that change is good, and amazing. Even if it is terrifying. I've learned and taught myself to love my body then I can teach myself that fear isn't bad or whatever....right?
Anyway, here are some pics from late June, early July. 

 

I love this shirt so much, it works so well for the summer and winter. Def my go to shirt for the summer.
 

Take Two

Blog number two. This time I'm taking it more seriously, before I felt as if I was just creating a blog because it was a trend and I wanted in. I was so young too, I was only 14 when I started. Now, almost 4 years later I'm ready to try again and make it good. Make it real, use it to help make a name for myself. And now that I'm out of high school, I can update more frequently and do more with this blog. If I have don't have readers than I can use it as a scrapbook for myself to look back on in later years of my life. 
I think this will be a great way to express myself and help me further build self love and appreciation for myself and my body.
This journey begins now, August 18, 2013 and I'm ready!! :)