Change & Strips

I don't really know what to write about but I guess I could talk about change. I don't know about anyone else but sometimes taking a chance or making a change paralyzes me, my life. I think it has held me back in high school and is holding me back in recent decisions in my life. I don't know why. Every time I want to do something bold, I'm just like nah, I can't, and not with clothing but with other things such as hairstyles or just life style things, such as college or jobs, something more like that. I'm even afraid to lose weight, I don't want to lose weight, I need to for health reasons, but that is for another time, another post. 
I'm afraid to finish things or pull through, with my writings or stories. WHY? I've been wondering why for the past three years. I just want to understand myself. Is it because I'm afraid to lose my family or my sisters? Am I afraid of losing memories or missing out on something? Am I sacrificing my dreams and life because of this fear? 
I don't know. I'm just annoyed with myself. I want to break this fear, so for my birthday I'm going to get a tattoo and dye my hair (black or add some dark auburn). Just small things that can ease my fear, you know. To teach myself that change is good, and amazing. Even if it is terrifying. I've learned and taught myself to love my body then I can teach myself that fear isn't bad or whatever....right?
Anyway, here are some pics from late June, early July. 

 

I love this shirt so much, it works so well for the summer and winter. Def my go to shirt for the summer.